Friday, August 12, 2011

Hug me now, baby!

Just a brief note. No real news, I am still felling 98% clear.
I had a few moments where I slipped into the unknown future (of the running about in circles in my head variety), wondering what it will feel like to have half the weight gone from my chest...
Will it feel weird? Lopsided?
Will I have the huevos to go around with no bra, looking all lopsided?
Blah blah blah.
Poor little making-things-up mind, please be sweetly silent now...Thank you, darling.

In *this* moment I am evenly weighted, can go braless if I want & the only thing anyone will think is that I am an aging hippie chick.
So, in this moment~~the very moment I am in~~there is no problem.

This morning, someone posted on their FaceBook wall a line from Byron Katie:
Everything happens for you, not to you.

Thanks. I needed that.

My niece came over today, & as she left we hugged. But I called her back into another hug, because after the surgery, I imagine I'll hug avoiding my healing left side for a while.
And I reminded her to feel this evenness of breast presence during a hug. That will be gone soon, too.
So enjoy it while you can!!

We both laughed out loud.


mrs mediocrity said...

I am glad that I will be able to send you virtual hugs no matter when. And I'm sending you one right now.

Jean J. said...

When I turned in my bed this morning, I reached for the book I was reading before I feel asleep. But, my fingers caught the other book sitting there instead, and I thought of you. "There Are No Accidents." Have you read it? It is by Robert H. Hopcke, and it is very good. I wonder sometimes what it would be like to belong to a culture that wasn't so "Think. Don't Feel." Anyway, I also am happy to be able to send you virtual hugs too -- HUGS, HUGS, HUGS...
May your day be filled with peace dear Skye.

skye said...

Oh, yummy! Thank you both!!
Yes, Jean, & I believe that we each can do our part to remove a brick from that cultural wall by learning to feel (as in be in sensation) again. is a journey!
Glad to be travelling with you guys!

d smith kaich jones said...

wow. you really can write. i feel like i'm settling in to a conversation over pie and a coke and we're at the kitchen table and we're both laughing. amd when i leave, i give you a hug - a big one. and after too - there will be more hugs then.


Amy said...

You are so amazing--much braver than I. ♥